i still look for you

Within the empty shade of sanguine

And last week’s paper, unopened

Tangibly lives your phantom

Caught betwixt leaving and having left

Last summer’s ivy tethers your ghost to the brick

And you cannot convince me differently

That you’re not still there, somewhere

At the very least, just down the hall

Although I see the light in your eyes

The innocence and traces of familiarity

I know she will not outlive you

A lease of comfort soon unrequited

But maybe if I click rewind

And force your memory into a chokehold

The ghost of you will meet us here

With a warmth outlasting your stay

Dust crested novellas

Fill a shelf never before neglected

And I wish to ignore

That what I resent will someday also disappear

A wind swept breadcrumb trail composed of you

So I sabotage myself with questioning the fabric of human soul

That lets me to look into your abandoned eye

And you not be there at all

Mayhaps it was always just chemical

And love is the price we pay for ugly truths

But I will selfishly wear my rose coloured glasses

To hope I may see you next time