The Difference

I know not how to detach tenancy from the loving gaze –

To appreciate beauty without the desire for possession

To employ the difference between “I love you” and “I need you”

Oh, what an  inconsolable ache in me

She’s never known my name

I want the gratification of existing wholly 

I bleed for it. 

An unbroken stitch, no loose-ends

An infinite crosshatch without need to fill 

And yet I try to carry water in unsteady hands 

Never to reach the destination. 

If only I could appreciate you like an art 

But I can’t be satisfied to glance and walk away. 

Similar to feel alive on a sunnier day 

How do I contain you so I may never see rain?

But if not for you, for me, selfishly:

I yearn to be farsighted.

To know love isn’t produced from the grip of my grasp 

But instead as an act of recognition 

That beauty exists in itself

And not simply medicinally